It doesn't mean that at some point in my daily walk with God I will not mess up. Because it is clearly stated "For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God." (Romans 3:23) But it is confirmation that since I am also the evidence of God's creation, and God already knew in advance of my existence the kinds of tribulations, weaknesses and limitations I would have, I am at liberty to glory in them. (Rom.5:3-5) There is even more assurance that you and I both have that if we thus apply ourselves and diligently seek God for His mercy, we can be justified freely by the gracious favor of God to us without any merit whatsoever in us.
My most recent witness to that is this. On Sunday November 25th 2012 at approximately 9:06 am, I died. Not literally, but figuratively speaking I died through the intense grief and pain upon receiving the news of the death of my co-worker. It was especially difficult because I was among one of the last persons to have worked with him and to have spoken with him only hours prior to that. I recall at the meeting, a team of seven of us, we joked and had laughter about so many things. Once our Skye business meeting was finished we left to go to our respective places of abode. I remember my last words to him was, take care of yourself, not knowing that would be the last time I would see him alive.
But I still died within as the news of my co-workers sudden death triggered the painful memory of the death of my brother-in-law who had succumbed to cancer just three months ago, August 2012. It suddenly hit me that I had back then wrestled my way out of the grieving process. I did everything I could to be strong for my sister, and to give her all the spiritual and moral support that she needed as she grieved the loss of her husband. With my sister living miles away in the US, the distance made it even easier for me to totally subdue my grieving.
But this time I could not. Death brings with it a sting! It bites deep into you as if it has the teeth of a lion or even a shark. The shock, denial and then such a heaviness and a great burden that I felt in my heart and my spirit. For a brief moment anger stepped in as I looked towards the heaven and I asked Father God, why? The answer did not come right away but later on in the morning it came to me, "you should not ask why, but ask what for?"
Empowerment Lessons And The Impartation
Yesterday I died within, but today I gladly rejoice that I live. Not I that live but Jesus Christ who is alive within me. Many times we have experiences in life and our focus tend to be about me, myself and I when the truth be told it's not about us. So here are the what for's that I received and I leave with you:
- God allows life experiences, painful as they may be at times so that we be the first hand witnesses to the outpouring of His mercy and His matchless grace. (2 Cor. 12:9)
- Just as Christ bore our burden and pain, God wants us to emulate Him and be the bearers of others burdens. (Mat.11:28-30; Gal.6:2)
- We must be willing to be partakers of others grief and suffering that we may in like manner be partakers of His favor and consolation. (2 Cor 1:7)
- That we ourselves may be comforters to others in their distress in life and to comfort them with the same comfort we have received. (2 Cor. 1:3-4)
- Dying to self must be a daily part of our lives - being more God-centered and not self-centered.
- Opportunity for us to cleanse and to heal - body, soul and spirit.
- Opportunity to mend differences with other family members or team members.
- Opportunity to continue the person's legacy that they may have left behind.
This list is not exhaustive. I am sure you too may have ideas that have crossed your mind. But I am grateful for the lessons that I learned through this experience. Today I am much better, I am wiser and I am stronger. I tell you the truth, when you have grace, you have it all.